Falling Upward, Chapter 6

I’m blogging through Father Richard Rohr’s Falling Upward: A Spirituality Through The Two Halves Of Life. Even if you haven’t read the book, please stick around and join the conversation here if you’re facing a mid-life transition. Father Rohr offers us all some meaty food for thought.

Here are links to my previous posts in the series:  IntroChapter 1Chapter 2Chapter 3Chapter 4Chapter 5

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Chapter 6 is titled “Necessary Suffering”, and offers a discussion about the role suffering plays in our human development. “Ironically, this refusal of necessary pain of being human brings to the person ten times more suffering in the long run,” Rohr writes. Suffering is a crucible that clarifies our inner lives. “Before the truth ‘sets you free’, it tends to make you miserable.”

He doesn’t make a distinction between the kind of suffering that accompanies dying to oneself versus, say, suffering that accompanies injustice or illness. Perhaps it is because these kinds of suffering can do the same kind of work in our lives as the loss that comes with change. There can be a lot of overlap, but I think the chapter could use some discussion about the kinds of suffering that introduce us to the crucible in addition to the useful discussion Rohr does offer us about suffering’s purpose in our lives.

His own Catholic faith has been that crucible for Rohr. Though he’s also been a vocal critic of his own faith family, he also realizes that his struggle with the Church has helped him to fully integrate and internalize the “incarnational mysticism” he’s discovered at the core of the Catholic worldview.

“The pedestrian and everyday church has remained a cauldron of transformation for me by holding me inside both the dark and the light side of almost everything, and by teaching me nondualistic thinking to survive. It has also shown me that neither I nor the churches themselves really live much of the real Gospel – at least enough to actually change our present lifestystyles! It is just too big a message. Refusing to split and deny reality keeps me in regular touch with my own shadow self, and much more patient with the rather evident shadow of the church. I see the exact same patterns in every other group, so my own home base is as good a place to learn shadow boxing as anywhere else, and often better than most.”

Nature portrays the process of “necessary suffering” for us, if only we’ll have eyes to see: death that accompanies a change of seasons, the number of seedlings launched into the wind that never become trees,  Yet most people deny the necessary suffering that accompanies change. You can see this denial at work in both institutions and in individuals. Rohr notes that even if people say ‘no’ to the pain of change, he trust in the God who waits and empowers free will and a free ‘yes’. “In a certain but real sense, the church itself is the first cross that Jesus is crucified on, as we limit, mangle, and try to control the always too big message….I am without a doubt a microcosm of this universal church.”

Rohr shifts then to a discussion about what it means to hate our family, and how this “hate” relates to the Fourth Commandment. This commandment is necessary for the first half of life, he notes, and it can be possible for the whole of our lives. However, in an interesting application of the inherent tension between these two Bible passages, Rohr explains that many people are restrained from growth in the second half of their lives by the “pious, immature, or rigid expectations of their first-half-of-life family.”

It isn’t just family that restrains us, Rohr notes. It is our peer group and our society. “Without very real inner work, most folks never move beyond it…To move beyond family-of-origin stuff, local church stuff, cultural stuff, flag-and-country stuff is a path few of us follow and with integrity.” Leaving home (the home of our first half), helps us find home.

“Your false self is your role, title, and personal image that is largely a creation of your own mind and attachments. it will and must die in exact correlation to how much you want the Real.”

Losing that false self is the reason for the necessary suffering so that we can find “‘the pearl of great price’ hidden inside this lovely but passing shell”.

Even if I am certain I’ve left behind my family of origin, I am amazed at how some of my childhood story has bubbled to the surface in recent years. I can attribute some of this to the deaths of both of my parents. But I think there is something more than this, something that has more to do with the falling upward of the second half of life. Am I the person my childhood experiences told me I was?

I’ve been surprised to discover that some of what I’d long discarded from those experiences as I entered my first adulthood needs to be welcomed into my second adulthood identity – but a whole lot more of that first adulthood needs to be honored, then left behind as a husk. A good counselor and a few prayerful friends have been a help in figuring out which is baby and which is bathwater, which is Real and which is only a shadow.

I want the Real.

Note: If you’re enjoying this discussion, you might want to visit “The Rest Of The Story” blog, where Angie is also blogging her way through Falling Upward.

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5 thoughts on “Falling Upward, Chapter 6”

  1. I’d agree with Rohr that suffering is a crucible, and an effective one at that in the hands of our heavenly Father. (Romans 8:28.) But I don’t know that I would call it necessary; that suggests a designed purpose behind it, a creative purpose ab initio. That’s not the case, from what I’ve read in the Bible.

    Suffering is a result of the Fall, rather, and God may have a purpose in using it in this fallen world. But I don’t think it is necessary in the sense of “this is how we were made and we can’t live without it.” Instead, if we are to use the word “necessary” in regard to suffering I think it is only in the sense of “I would not have learned this particular lesson if I had not experienced the suffering.”

    Thanks for the review Michelle, and for provoking some thinking in my head!


  2. I, too, believe that some of what I’d long discarded from my experiences of first adulthood needs to be welcomed into my second adulthood identity. I’ve spoken often of this with my husband. However, I’m not sure how to recover those parts because I am not the same person. Life changes you.

    Thanks for the HT (I think I’ve used that correctly. I’m still learning.)

  3. I agree with you, Tim. What kind of Father would God be if he wired hurt into the equation for his children?

    I struggled with Fr. Rohr’s use (without much framing) of the word “suffering’. In the context of the chapter, I understand that he is describing growing pains/the “dying” process of transition. Yes, Romans 8:28 applies here – all things worked together for those who love God and are called according to his purpose.

    Thanks for writing!

  4. Maybe it’s not recovery, Angie. Maybe it’s just acknowledging what seems to be remaining as you move into that second adulthood.

    I am a high extrovert, but as a child, I was very bookish – a big time introvert. Honestly, I was a little afraid of this introvert side of myself throughout my first half. (As author Adam McHugh has noted, it is much easier to be an extrovert and serve in a ministry role.) Nowadays, I’m still very outgoing, but I am learning to reconnect and welcome that introvert part of me that I’d silenced in my first half.

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